Since November 2019, I was taking care of my mom, I canceled the most part of the jobs and I broke the most part of my working contracts. She was diagnosed with dementia and she began to change so much in a very short period of time. She completely became a new person.
In the last 8 months every single morning was like a new beginning. I had to enter in her apartment explaining who I was and what we were going to do that day. Every single day… the same story, like if her brain had a hard reset during the night. But it was worth it, every single step of the process. I learned a lot from this and tomorrow I would do the same choice again and again. This experience has been the toughest of my life but it’s also been the most incredible one.
A few days ago when the doctor called me to go to the hospital for a final goodbye she was awake, with the oxygen mask but still awake. She took my hand and she made a very little smile and all of the sudden she recognised me like she never did in the last 30 months because of the dementia.
I just gave back to my mom like 1% of what she did for me and my brother when we were young and I felt like it was just the right thing to do. I left so much money and contracts behind but again I can tell you: it was all worth it. She was the one, 33 years ago, who bought my first ticket for LA and I still remember the words from that day: “Honey, go and follow your dreams, because I never had the chance to do it”.
I changed a lot in the last 5 months after my brother died and now my mom. I’m focusing on what is really important in this life and what is not important at all and that’s a huge change.
There are still a lot of people coming across my website every day and in the last 12 months I had so many emails asking why I was not posting more.
Well, it was right to tell you the truth.
I love this picture of my mother and my bro that was taken somewhere at the Italian Riviera in 1968… I was not even born. I’ve been lucky, I had the coolest mom in the world and the best brother ever. I will miss them forever even if the fact that now they are back together somewhere in the universe is giving me a little of peace.
